Crazy weekend. Saturday I was depressed, angry, etc. I didn't expect it, but Nyx came and loved me all day. I was just writing my mom an email about it, and it hit me how awesome it felt to have someone come and love me one day when I really needed it. She came over at 1pm and of course i was sleeping. Nyx brought me a slice of pizza and gave me some of her energy in a bottle juice that she spilled all over my front porch. Then we talked about a ton of random shit I showed her all my new cool awesome boots I bought. We talked about our hair and how we needed to dye it so that was our mission for the day. Nyx said she would dye my hair if I did something. Which I think I never did and I can't remember what she said I had to do. Ooops. We went to Junkman's and bought hair dye and she bought herself some new clothes. Then we went to one of my favorite places ever: the costume shop. We bought lots of neat makeup, including eye shadow and amazing sparkly stuff. Then we went to my house to pick up my clothes and shoes and make up so I could get ready at her house after she dyed my hair. We were going to chaos fest that night....and oh what a festival it was. Anyway, we got all done up, we looked amazing.....even if it took us 6 hours to get ready...hee hee. I got drunk and started beeing obnoxious I think. I felt all this weird anger, or resenmente maybe? So I let it out on the bathroom doors at the club. I proceeded to have an insane fight that night, that almost changed my life forever. But yesterday I got flowers and a gift card for Victoria's Secret, I hate a lot of bad food for me and I watched Johnny Depp in all his amazingness and hotness in Pirates of the Caribbean. So now I am 'ok'. I am just going to pretend like the entire dark night of septemeber 17th didn't excist, I am going to enjoy my amazing bra and panties I bought, I am going to enjoy my beautiful roses, I am going to go kickboxing,  I am going to enjoy not going to work today, and I am NOT going to remember the dark night of september 17th because if I do it's all over. Because that night represents everything I have always despised.

 

PS. My hair is just too cool.