Yesterday i met with holly and her partner also got to play with their two dogs xD hahahah im so dog broody atm its not even funny

Iv been looking to change a ton of things in my life atm and its nice that even tho iv known these guys for only a short while theyll go out of their way to help me out. i dont want to go into details of why i was up there cos im a believer in jinxing lol but i got thinking that night on my train ride home what it would be like to move to that area. it would be completly starting again. no friends no networks i wouldnt have a local...scary im way too soft for my own good lol.

however, mike did take me to some proper ghetto shops of which i fell in love with everything covered in rhinestones including a pair of nikes, a coat and these bad boys

 iv also had the privalige of seeing hollys new clips for her various porn sites shes been doing and i must say O_O something defintaly worth checking out if you can. best to message her cos i forget all the links.

my other musings the last day:

friendship is a crazy thing. i think i can understand about as much of that as i do about relationships. you still never no what the other person is thinking.

im back at square 1 to rebuild myself to start again i dont really feel like i want to unload my shit onto someone new tho. the last friend i made was my ex's friend.she took his side understandably.

fair enough

 i saw it coming,shame i felt like we had alot in common.

Im hoping that soon ill be up and ready for some more shoots as i havnt done one since august and that was for this site!!