Sabrina

Sometimes I sit here for hours bidding on ridiculous things that I don't need, but I've been bidding on these markers that I use when I make project boards for school (or for my clients) for three days now. They're kinda expensive to purchase one by one and I'm trying to buy a set of like 90 of them. I'm winning right now. 15 more hours to go... I have a job interview on Tuesday morning so wish me luck :) I can't believe the weekend is almost over. Gotta get my portfolio ready. I should have been working on it the last couple days but I started a painting a couple days ago and have been doing that instead. It feels good to be back ino my artwork again. Its been so long... I haven't left my house in 3 days cause I'm so focused on this painting.  And winning those markers. I kinda don't wanna get my meds refilled cause I know when I do and once they kick back in, my drive won't be as strong as it is right now. But I also know that I can't be off them for too long. I wish I could find some sort of balance. Sometimes it so much fun to be manic. Its like being on drugs but you're not. I think that's why I do drugs when I'm on my medicine cause I miss feeling "high". Its silly cause there's no point to that. I  could be saving a lot of money by not having to pay for either and just be manic. I know I can drive eveyone crazy though, including myself. Either way, I can't win. Well, I'm gonna go paint and then try to sleep. Goodnight :)