although i don't HATE richmond any more now that i'm older. most of the issues i had with this place were personal ones that got resolved as my level of maturity rose. actually i kinda like it here. it's safe. not by any means crimewise since this place is a shithole when it comes to that but just that it's so easy to get by on low pay here if you don't need much. i feel that it makes people lazy. fuck it makes me lazy a lot of times. and my interest is rarely sparked by much these days even though there's plenty to occupy myself with if i was into doing the same shit over and over and over and over and over again. i don't always feel this overwhelming urge to get away from here again but it's coming to the surface more and more often. it could also be a "quarter life crisis" or something like that because it seems that most people i know are doing more interesting things with their lives then i am at this point. i'm convinced that this will change b/c lord knows i'm trying to fix it but i am so impatient and bored with most anyting and i haven't been able to take a trip of any sort in months. i'm getting antsy being in one place for such a long period of time.

i wrote this message to mick today when he enquired about my message to him about my overwhelming urge to move to LA already
"you know, the usual. no biggie. richmond bores me. each day my 'i feel like i'm wasting my life' itch gets harder to ignore. whatevs. i'll just block it out and shove it deep down into the nether regions of my psyche where it can silently gnaw on my soul"

i miss my lady friends the most though. i need to go to NY, Boston and LA to see them all. lets all move to an island together.


my birthday is on friday. i wish people would just shower me with money because that's my main source of troubles these days along with a small (actually kinda big) immigration problem that i'd rather not discuss ever again because i hate dealing with all that bullshit.


i hope my birthday doesn't suck. is all i ask for.

love all of you even though i haven't been around much lately. blame it on my computer being deadeadeadead and my general attempts at making a better life for myself. it can get distracting.