Ok so today i went to go get my car inspected and it FAILED!!! WTF!!! ITS A NEW FUCKIN CAR!! well its new to me.. lol anyways so i have 15 days to try to get it fixwed and then take it back to get inspected again... im preatty fuckin pissed about the whole thing... plus i waited a hour for them to tell me it failed!! so that really sucked.
I went and watched bruno today with the hyubby... it was fuckin funny... we went to the Alamo Draft house to watch it so we could drink and watching the movie... i loved watching movies and drinking... fuck going to any place were you cant buy a beer! sometimes after a long day all you want to do is drink a a few beers and relax for a lil while.. you know just to get thing out of your head and all... I know i need at least some time during the day to be able to do that and just fuckin space everything else out for a while so i dont loose my mind.
So my back.. yeah my back has been killing me... i feel like i am going to have to rip my spine out just so i can get some type of relief...... that sound crazy but thats how i feel.. Ever since i had my first kid my back has been killing me... and now after the second one my back is just gotten alot worse and i dont know why.... My husband said it is prob from how much i worked when i was pregnant... i meant i worked untill the day before i gave birth.... so all the holding dogs and picking up dogs and cat littler and 50lbs of feed didnt help anything but still... i didnt think i would end up in this much pain.... My hubby said i need to just go to the Doc but i hate doing that and plus i have this fear that they will just be like ... well sorry cant do anything about it... and ill be fucked still with all this pain.... ahhh i dont know... i am also afraid that they will be like well you have been living with this for 3 years... if you were in real pain you would have come sooner...
i dont know what to fucking do... ahhh crazy life










