Kandace

aww thank you all for all the kind words <333

*hug* if you keep telling his stories and jokes and stories about him he'll live on

That really sucks Kandace, my sincere and heartfelt condolences. Its hard to deal with something like that but, know that it was not by any means your fault. He would not want you to beat yourself up making it feel like it was your fault. Trust that and mourn him fully without guilt that it was you.

my friend hung himself too when i was 18 which was a while ago. he was 20, and had tried to do stuff before. i was really mad when i found out. i felt bad for his family, but i was pissed at him. i thought i could save him for so long before that, but there was nothing i did that worked. i felt betrayed. since then i've come to terms with it, but still think i could have done something different. i know that nothing would have worked though. he was never happy. he was a good guy though, and i'll never forget him. he was the person who helped me to stop thinking like a kid and question things when i was about 12, and got me really into music. things get easier, but you'll never forget. that was almost 10 years ago, but i always remember how he helped me become the person i am now.

boo, the same thing happened to me last year, you CANNOT beat yourself up over this. its not your fault, how were you to know that he was feeling that way? no one ever expects this, because no one ever wants to think that there gonna loose someone they love.