Julia

New set, new tattoo, same hair, of course! Still chat hosting on www.camcontacts.net screenname BITCHGODDESS Just some thoughts... Frustrated attempts to comunicate are amongst the most painful experiences that keep repeating thekselves over and again in my life. It's like i'm always trying to talk to people who don't speak my language and simply can't be bothered trying to figure out my hand gestures. So here i am: sitting in life's waiting room trying to make conversation with this receptionist, who seems rather occupied filing her nails and picking her zits using a hand bag cracked and greasy mirror. I am primarily concerned, nowadays, in finding a good rational way to numb my need for relating thoughts and feelings, admiring, respecting, hoping i can just hang on to those needs for now because it never seems to be a good time to bring attention to them, nobody cares as long as i smile and look pretty, however, i'm having some trouble smiling because it seems like the dull and umcomfortable numbness, yet very quietly, is freezing my dreams.