Hey all.

So I am back in New York. It’s pretty fucking cold- but I like it. Apparently it was kind of warm here last week and then I got here and it suddenly became really cold. I have a winter jacket and I kinda hate it. Jojo (she works in the BurningAngel office) always makes fun of me about it. Not about how much I hate the jacket but how ugly the jacket actually is. I have had it for about 5 years and I’ve never washed it (if I have I have no recollection of it) and it looks kinda 90’s raver-ish almost. It has stripes on the arms and yellow padding on the inside. When it gets cold enough to wear the jacket I usually don’t care about what I’m wearing, I’m just thinking about being practical and warm.

I went to Detroit for the weekend to do some family Thanksgiving shit. It was nice. I think most of my family members are over the porn thing by now and Thanksgiving dinner is no longer awkward. They can make jokes about it. My family is Jewish- Jews like to gossip…. the "Joanna does porn" gossip is kinda old by now and they have moved onto more interesting topics to complain about- like my sister’s non-Jewish boyfriend that she will probably marry or my aunts new cabinets in the kitchen. They are some damn nice cabinets.

Yeah so in any case, I returned from Detroit on Friday around midnight and immediately wanted to go out as soon as i got off the plane…I went to my loft and dropped off all my stuff… changed my outfit from something relatively friendly to something more club in manhattan friendly, and then…  I put the ugly jacket on. I looked in the mirror and decided that maybe JoJo was right and the jacket really was ugly and I shouldn’t wear it into Manhattan. I mean, what if one of those crazy bloggers saw me and took a picture and made fun of me? I probably shouldn’t care about what they think but the jacket really is pretty gross. So instead I put on a much cooler looking but not so warm jacket I got from Ben Sherman a few years ago. Usually Ben Sherman shit is so expensive.. but I found this jacket for pretty cheap… I was so surprised. I was like, Holy Shit- why is this so cheap? It’s Ben Sherman, and it’s awesome looking, and it’s a jacket. I shortly learned that the jacket was like, one very thin piece of fabric. It gave the illusion of being kinda like a biker jacket, although it wasn’t leather- It sorta looked like leather from far away but it wasn’t. I think it was made out of garbage bags. I don’t know if you have ever worn a garbage bag before but they really don’t keep you warm. Yeah. Why am I telling you all this? I am not so sure. If any of you saw me on Saturday night walking around Manhattan and thought I looked stylish or cool or cute or hot or something-just know that I was also really really cold and that next time you see me I may in fact be wearing an ugly poofy yellow racing striped thing from the 90’s.

I stayed out till about 8 am and drank till I was sober. If any of you have stayed out till 8 am I am sure you understand what that means. My friend Mike who owns the Beauty Bar out here always lets me and my friends hang out there after after hours. The two "afters" were not a typo- I literally meant after the after hours. Like I went to another bar at 4am and got kicked out of there at about 4:30 and then went to Beauty Bar after being kicked out of the after hours bar. I know you must think I was having crazy wild orgies and doing lots of drugs since I stayed out till 8 am in an after after hours bar… but really all the guys I hang out with in New York are gay. I think they have their own wild drug orgies in the bathroom because they kinda take turns going in and out of there in groups of 2 or 3 or 4 when we’re hanging out… but I don’t get invited. I guess it is probably better that way. I don’t know why my "crew" out here is a bunch of bitchy gay guys, it must be because I have connections to guys with really big penises. I think most of them are just using me to get to my boyfriend, which is fine.

Am I starting to ramble?

I hung out with college friends before I went to the bar that I went to before I went to beauty bar. Like from midnight till 4 am ish… no they aren’t friends in college they are friends I had when I was in college who were in the area because of Thanksgiving. One of them is named Sue. When I was in college Sue was a junior and I was a Freshman, and she didn’t like me very much. She was like this bad ass chick who sang in a hardcore band and rode a motorcycle and I was a loser freshman with freshly died manic panic purple hair. I wanted to make out with all her male friends who idolized her and barely even wanted to make out with me. She tried to hate me because I was a "new girl" and I was too scared to even talk to her but somehow we wound up being friends, and staying friends. I made her feel girly and she made me feel tough. Now she is sort of a scientist and sort of a computer programmer and in addition to riding a motorcycle she flies a plane as a hobby. Yeah. Crazy right?

The funniest part of all this though- is that she purchased a copy of Joanna’s Angels 2 when it came out. She was in this long term relationship with this guy for a while and they watched Joanna’s Angels 2 together a lot. She told me that when they broke up the biggest fight they had when they were splitting up their stuff was over who should keep Joanna’s Angels 2- I think technically he paid for it… but I was like… her college friend and I think she told him to buy it. He won possession over it- and she was pissed. I asked her why she didn’t just call me and ask for a new one, and she said that she didn’t want me to know that she was jerking off to my movies- she thought I would be offended. HA! I just think back to when I was a freshman in college who could barely work up the courage to say hi to her at hardcore shows- if someone would have told me we would be having this conversation uh… 6 years later - I - well I wouldn’t have believed them. Life works out in weird ways. Yeeeeeeeah.

Well this is all I will write today.

I’ll write more tomorrow.

xoxox

joanna