alright well. lots of things. many things. where do i begin.

i don’t really smoke anymore- i am still moderately upset but I am dealing with it. I’m trying to just be the best Joanna I can be, maybe better. Whatever that means. See, today I went to the supermarket and bought stuffed olives for lunch (olives with garlic in them- yeah my breath smells bad and I don’t care!) and there was a whole gang of 14 year old girls outside and about 80% of them were smoking. I was one of these girls when I was 14 as well, I don’t need to be one of these girls now.

Yesterday I got to do a scene with Belladonna! It was for a movie she has coming out in December which I believe will be called "Fucking Girls 5". Belladonna is amazing… I really really liked having sex with her. I think I needed it. For the most part in porn, things are very professional and matter of fact. Somehow us porn stars can just switch on and off from having crazy hot passionate sex to like, going home and eating a burger and watching The Office and everything being cool. However, I think like… I dunno. I think I got a little attached to Belladonna. I thought about her a lot when I came home and was like "hmm… does she like me? when can I see her again? did she really cum?" Hahahaha… it’s funny. I don’t think Belladonna has any interest in being my girlfriend- she is married and has a kid and stuff, but I hope she had as much fun as I did. She is totally sbetter in bed than anyone else I’ve ever had sex with I think… boys and girls included (sorry to everyone who is reading this that I may have had sex with at one point or another)

I fisted my ass and her pussy at the same time… and that was pretty cool… I mean.. yeah. I can’t put stuff like that on this site but if you go to www.enterbelladonna.com the photos of that are somewhere. People ask me what it felt like, and I said "warm". It’s very warm inside bella’s pussy and ass hahahahaha- maybe I should move in there for the winter time and hibernate. She really liked it… the double fisting wasn’t like, for circus value… it wasn’t for like… woooooah look what I can do value, I mean really, the girl actually gets off on having two fists inside her. It’s very impressive. I mean I think it may have been the most romantic fisting in the history of fisting, she looked at me like she was in love with me when I was doing it. I wasn’t quite sure what to do while I was in there… like… was I supposed to move around? Was I supposed to turn my fists around? Was I supposed to punch her insides? I don’t know… I sort of moved my hands around a bit and then just kind of stared at her in amazement. I was a little unprepared for it.  Once I did a video where I masturbated with two dildos in my ass and two in my pussy- it was for Hustler, and the video I believe was called "stuffed" or something else equally as classy. I’m not gonna lie, the shit fucking hurt. It didn’t feel good at all but I was really determined to make it work so I could write it on my list of accomplishments. That list is saved in a word document on my computer and has a wide variety of wishes… of them being "graduate from college" (which i did) another one being "put two dildos inside my ass and my pussy at the same time and masturbate". OK I am lying- the exact verbiage on the list entails achieving an orgasm while doing this however, I could not make this possible. I think it is OK that I modified my list to merely fitting them in, for my own self esteem’s sake. I mean you know… us Jews… we’re really hard on ourselves… we’re always biting off more than we can chew. I think we’re allowed to cut ourselves some slack every once in a while.

The fact that Belladonna has the most elastic asshole I have ever seen in my life is not why i love her. She’s really a sweet-heart, and she’s actually really romantic. She likes foreplay. She likes kissing, and she likes… well she likes everything. But there was a lot of foreplay before we got to the double fisting thing and I really liked it. I think I forgot about foreplay for a while. It’s severly under-rated. I hope you don’t think I’m a big pansy for saying this. Belladonna made me so wet before my pants even came off. No one has successfully done that to me in a while.

I went to see Morrissey the other night and that was awesome too. He took his shirt off and threw it in the audience. I can’t believe he still does that! Maybe I should add to my list of accomplishments to achieve "catching Morrissey’s shirt at concert" however I think that might in fact take more effort than putting two dildo’s inside one orifice and achieving an orgasm. I love Morrissey with all my heart- even more than I love Belladonna or olives stuffed with garlic… but his fans just go above and beyond even your average stalker-ish fandom… and I just can’t compete with them for his shirt. There is strong potential I will get killed in the process. I went to Morrisey with my friend Ed, who I have been hanging out a lot with lately. He writes screenplays- like real ones for real Hollywood movies. He’s in the process of writing one that will probably be a big budget motion picture kind of thang… I told him I would make a porno parody of it and that excited him. That would be pretty cool if one day every big Hollywood director wanted me to make a porno parody of their movie. If you are reading this and have any big shot director or screenwriter friends ask them if they want a funny pornofied parody of their big passion project and I will get on it!

Yeeeeah so, in any case… after Morrissey, Ed and I went to some bar and drank champagne. When we were at Morrisey, we were drinking mixed drinks. I guess champagne and mixed drinks don’t really mixed because when I came home I puked in the toiled like 3 times. I was still feeling ill after puking so I made myself a triple decker grilled cheese sandwich with like, bacon and tomatoes and all sorts of shit on it… and then for some reason I felt better. This is all information that probably isn’t that interesting to you but… I’m telling you anyways because.. well because I want to.

I have a movie that is almost done being edited… it’s my big girl girl movie called "girls girls girls" - all the girls are like, decked out in 80’s gear and my hair is crimped and shit. I really love it- it’s awesome. It’s so colorful and I think all the scenes are pretty hot. Girl Girl movies tend to be pretty fucking boring in porn and I think I succeeded in making an un-boring one. I think it will be out in late November or December… it feels like one big slumber party. That’s about all I can really say.

Alright, well this was a pretty fun journal entry. I think it broke my streak of depressing journal entries and now I can get back into the mode of you know… making you laugh and smile and shit. I think Belladonna’s insides is what snapped me out of my sadness. She was like prozak,  but with a much nicer ass.