see, the BurningAngel girl Madison came over for the weekend from Detroit to make some porn. My friend Icarus, who also did a little porn with her has been staying over too. Madison is staying at my house because she lives in Detroit and was shooting some BurningAngel porn, Icarus is here because he likes being at my house and I kinda like having him at my house. Sometimes I like being alone, and sometimes I like having lots of people here for no reason. It makes my life feel more like summer camp. To make a long story short, Madison and Icarus are doing it, right in back of me. If I turned around I could watch but I don’t know if I want to because I already watched them twice. OK maybe I’ll turn around for a second.

K that was cool.

Anyways, yeah. It’s been really super hot here. Like it was 118 degrees here over the weekend. That’s retared right? I think some people died. I don’t know maybe they didn’t. I think people are prepared for this sort of thing in Los Angeles. It just so happenes that two places I shot porn in over the weekend had no air conditioning and it made for some really sweaty porn.

In addition to Madison shooting porn, I too made a porn. Lately I have been looking in the mirror and being like, damn I look pretty good. I’ve been going to the gym a lot and staying active and what not, I also like my pink hair. So who knows. There is a possibility that I could go on a pizza/ bagel binge and not look like this in a few months so I thought I should shoot some stuff with myself in it.

There is something I need to tell you. Last December… I put on some weight. I got kinda chunky. I know you probably won’t tell me I did to my face but, I really did and I hate it. See being out here in California I don’t walk much, I got in the habbit of eating fast food and like… I also stopped doing the kind of drugs that keep you skinny. And it really sucked! I didn’t know how to un chunkify myself. I cut out fast food and some other not so healthy but very tasty things and lost weight. I look better now. But in any case, during this chunky period in my life I shot a movie… the movie "big boobs are cool". The good thing about being chunky is that my boobs did go to like, a size D… the bad thing is that I was kinda chunky. In any case… yeah. The movie is coming out this September and I’m sort of embarassed for you all to see it. The sex is hot and stuff but I don’t think I really look my best. My hair was like, this icky brown color… my tummy was like, you know… being tummy like and it was the winter time and I was really pale and not in a good way. I dunno. So if you buy the movie don’t judge me. I swear! I don’t look like that any more. Maybe you guys won’t even care so much. Maybe it was just all in my head, but I don’t think so. I think it was all in my stomach. Just jerk off to the penis going in my butt hole and don’t look at my stomach. OK? Please I beg of you.

In any case, as you know we made a "fuck me in the bathroom" movie, and I will eventually make a "fuck me in the bathroom, #2" movie so I shot a hot scene of me in a bathroom, and it was REALLY REALLY sweaty. I was covered in sweat, so was the guy. It was so awesome. The bathroom was really big and we fucked all over it. On the sink, in the shower, on the shower, on the toilet, up against the wall… the up against the wall thing looked super hot. i was like pressed against the wall and my butt was just arched out a little bit and it was getting fucked. It felt good, and it looked really good on camera. I wore this little fishnet dress. I felt weird about wearing it because like, I see girls in Jules Jordan movies wearing those things… and lots of other porn movies. Mostly the gonzo porn movies. I dunno. Like, I felt like maybe the outfit was a little too porny or something, so I paired it up with a pair of vans instead of heels. I mean, I think the heels were sexy but like, I felt too much like I was working for Red Light District or something… and I don’t work for other people really anymore. See, sometimes … ok not sometimes… always, I really hate the term "alt" porn and I hate being associated with it. Because sometimes I like wearing cheesy porn clothes and I feel like I need to always wear something weird because thats what people think I am supposed to be. I am really just a horny girl with tattooes who likes making funny porn movies. I don’t know. This whole "alt" thing got blown out of proportion. But I really did like the fishnet dress with van sneakers. Plus, I was able to actually keep my shoes on during the scene. I always winding taking my heels off about 10 seconds into the scene when I do wear them. Theyre not so comfortable to fuck in. On a side note, I also really like that Rhinna song where she goes "enna enna eh eh eh" or whatever and that song is most certainly not "alt". I also think she is really hot and would like to have celebrity sex scandal with her. I also like the new rilo kelly album (is that their only album?) and I also really like the misfits. I guess I am just a mish mosh of things. I don’t really care to be honest, and neither should you.

woot woot.

it’s time to go because Icarus is gonna cum on Madisons face and like, I wanna see it.