hey everyone.
I’m checking in again. I can’t belive it’s aready like, august 27th. That’s retarded. What happened to the summer? Damn this year went by really quickly. I know it’s not totally over yet, but it’s getting there. Fucking christ. Before I know it I will be 50 years old and my boobs will be down to my belly button. And that’s gonna really suck. It will actually suck for you a lot more than for me because I am gonna make all of you still watch my webcam shows and I won’t let you close your eyes! I am sure by that point in the future I will have the ability to control that kinda thing.
OK. so Umm.. yeah… what’s happened this past week. I need to start updating my blog more than once a week but its so hard to find time sometimes. GRRRRR yeah.
OK, well last weekend I had to go away with my family. My cousin got married, so like EVERYONE in my family was there. I must give myself a pat on the back. I found a way to strategically put my hair up so none of the pinky really showed. I don’t even know how I did it really. It was sort of an amy weinhouse up-do sort of poof, and moving a few haris over and placing a few hairs under really just made my hair look black. It’s silly, i know I am way too old to have to hid this kind of shit but it’s more a matter of respect than anything else. My uncle is like some big important rabbie and you know, the way this fucked up world is like.. he could probably lose his job if a freak with pink hair started hanging around his congregation. I dunno. I just wanted to lay low and I didn’t want to be the center of attention. I also found creative outfits that covered just about all of my tattoos… not 100% but it covered most of them and just let one sort of peek through. I think I looked pretty Jewish. I did a good job of just looking like a nice Jewish girl sort of.
Wedding always make me feel weird. Do they do that to everyone? I mean, I know I like to say bitter angry things like, aw man, this is lame, this is stupid… look at her dumb dress… I’m bored, lets go get drunk, fuck this, blah blah blah… but you know… underneath all the sarcasm I spewed to whoever would listen at the ceremony-I know deep down inside that even I think that having a wedding looks kind of fun.
So then I thought about what kind of wedding I would have. Ever since I was like, 14 I always imagined myself having like, a punk rock kind of wedding in my back yard with bands playing and my friends there and shit but when I was watching the ceremony I was like, well… having a real traditional Jewish wedding might be kinda cool. And then I tried to figure out a way to combine the two and none of them really made sense in my head. Any wedding I have been to in the past like 8 years I have had to wear some kind of ugly dress that covered all my tattooes. I definitely don’t want to have to do that for my own wedding. Blahhh I don’t know. Thinking about my wedding really isn’t so important. Fuck weddings, they get you thinking about annoying things.
I actually do have to run off to a photo shoot now but I have more to tell you so I will catch you up on it later.
xoxox
joanna
