i am not in a bad mood. i shouldn't have left my bad mood entry up for so long! i am sure you were all so worried and lost sleep over it.
now i tried to re-write my old entry a bunch of times and then i got over it. the basic jist of it was- porn is a strange place right now. Everyone is so scared because of all the obscenity trials that have come about in the past few years... and stores, and distributors don't want anything in any movie that is even slightly risky- and as a result- I think porn will be nothing but cuddling in a few years. I remember like five years ago when everyone was making crazy rough intense porn (some was good, some was just downright gross- but reguardless- no one should go to jail for making a gross movie) ... I remember it was moving in this crazy direction where I was like- man- what will people be doing 10 years from now? What can two people do together that hasn't been done yet? Because you know- the way porn was in the 70's was just so different than how it was a few years ago.... the sex just got infinately more... intense. Anways, now it has gone in the opposite direction. There still is some crazy porn on the internet- but you realy can't put that shit on DVD. Soooooo to make a long story short- there will be no choking, slapping, or spitting, in my gangbang. It all had to be edited out- I think I will put the un-edited version on the internet. I felt a little un-punk for agreeing to the terms but I really don't want to fight for my right to make porn right now- I just want to make it, and not fight... because I don't have the time or the money to do it. I watched the newly edited gangbang and it's totally fine- I am sure everyone who likes gang-bangs will like it but the fact that I had to edit out anything just to make sure I don't wind up in jail is just so ridiculous and annoying and it really makes me hate this country. OBAMA PLEASE HELP THE PORN INDUSTRY SO WE AREN'T JUST SNUGGLING AND HAVING PILLOW TALK ON CAMERA!
It's just insane. Like, HELLO I am the producer? I PAID all the guys to have sex with me- and I hired like, very expensive cock for my gangbang scene. You really think that anyone would deliberalty do something I wasn't comfortable with sexually when I am paying them to fuck me? JEEZE.
Someone however- who has more time and power and money than me- who is fighting for his right to make porn right now is John Stagliano. He is a genious and an amazing pornographer and he is currently facing an obscenity charge. He just put a movie out called "Defend Our Porn" where all the profits from the sales go to helping his case. If you must buy a porn that's not a BurningAngel porn- then please buy that one. If he wins- everyones lives in porn will be better.
You can read more about his case and his porno here.
Blaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Yeah.
So speaking of obscenity- I have been watching a lot of Comedy Central lately and you know what I found obscene? Well, not obscene but- umm... for lack of better words- BAD- a stupid show called "the roast of Bob Saget." For some reason Comedy Central has decided to replay this like 9 times over the course of the past three days and- it had to have been the poorest excuse for a TV show I had ever seen. I mean- it was worse than "I wanna work for Diddy" and even Tila Tequila's reality show. Seriously! Like- what pissed me off the most about it- was that it wasn't even a show. Basically, Bob Saget sat on a stage and a bunch of his friends talked shit to him- then he got on stage and talked shit to his friends. There were some funny people who were part of the "roast" but like- they weren't being so funny that evening. They all said the same things. They all made fun of Full House, then accused Bob Saget for being gay, and then made some kinda refrences to him secually molesting the Olsen Twins when they were 5. I dunno. The humor was just so bad and tasteless- now why I chose to watch this all 9 times that it was on is a different story. Maybe sometimes I just like being angry. I really am a pretty calm person- I rarely ever get pissed off. Maybe I just subconciously needed some hatrid in my life? I have been eating a lot of organic food and shit lately- I've revisited some vegan dishes I haven't eaten in years. I think all this hippy food has made me even more peaceful than I usually am- so yea- I guess i needed something to yell at- and I don't really enjoy yelling at other people- yelling at the TV was a bit therapudic.
And speaking of hippy foods- I made a pretty kick ass organic lasagna tonight with like whole weat noodles, and mushrooms and tofu and all sorts of other shit. I was proud of myself. It took about 3 hours. Even James liked it- and he really hates hippy food. Don't tell him I put tofu in there. Shhhhh.
xoxo
Joanna










