This entry is a bit emo, angry, and liberating all at the same time. See I have this friend who is going through the same thing I am. It's about a breakup. I dated this guy for like 4 months that I gave my heart and soul to. He left me for 6 weeks to go to Scotland, and kind of just broke off all communication with me while he was there. I stayed loyal, and loved him still. So he comes back, and kind of starts being all douchey to me. I show him the same respect back and break up with him through a text message. He can kiss my ass for all I care. Anyway, my friend hit this whole ordeal head on when he wrote me..
"But remember you will stop hurting. You will be rewarded for being the good person you are one day. I can tell you are a good person from talking to you that night at Veselka. You remained loyal to your boyfriend while he left you and the country for 6 weeks and he didn't even call or contact you, or bring you something back. You even offered to buy him a calling card just because you wanted to talk to him and hear his voice. And when he came back, all you wanted to do was spend time with him and show him the love and affection you had for him that you've had built up in you because you remained faithful the whole time he was gone. and how did he respond? By showing disinterest and wanting to concentrate on the things that were important to him. Well you were what should have been important to him. He's a lying, cheating, self centered, asshole with no conscious or he would've never cheated on you let alone broken up with you a day before your birthday. I know all this because I can see it through a third person perspective. I know all this because I am going through the same thing myself right now with a person just as, if not even lower and more despicable then the alleged person you are dealing with. So I understand."
I'm so done with dating. Also, my xbf was originally a fan of mine, then told me he didn't want me doing porn anymore. I told him I will never give up porn for him. See how good i am to you guys. :D
Anyway, have you guys seen my new set?! James Deen's penis is so nice right? It looks so good in and around my mouth. Oh and I know you all have been complimenting my makeup and hair. Guess who was my MUA that day? GIA PALOMA!! Yes, the hot and talented Gia Paloma. She's such a sweetheart.
One last thing.. You all are going to my Birthday party RIGHT?! I better see all of you NYC members there in pink. RockMonsta wrote me a song and is debuting it that night. You CAN NOT miss it!! <3
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