the one who makes you smile the most, also makes you nervous the most? i, jessie lee, have been single for quite a while now. but i always get these crushes from time to time. the current one seems my strongest. i even have a picture of him and i on my phone as the background. it's a super cute photo. everyone agrees. lately i've been REALLY crushing on this certain someone, and it's driving me mad. i've always seemed to put my defenses up by just "dating" various guys, and not just being exclusive with any of them. but because of how strong this liking has grown, i've completely stopped talking to other guys. yes i flirt. but who doesn't? my next defense is to try and not make any of the initial contact with this person i crush. instead it has lead me to lurk him more and more. i like to preach that i don't want anything serious with anyone. i'm kind of lying when i say these things. he tells his friends he digs me a lot. but sometimes it's hard to tell if he's just lusting me, or if he truely does like me. ugh i don't know anymore. we have established that we are "exclusive", but who knows what that means. if "exclusive" means seeing this person only twice a week, then it doesn't seem too exclusive to me. maybe i'm wasting my time. maybe i should just stop myself from liking him. i'm too afraid of being hurt by another dumb guy. maybe i'm just over analyzing the situation. any advice? it would be much appreciated. :)