BellaVendetta

I'm really sorry I haven't blogged in so long. Alot of stuff has been happening and I haven't known exactly how to talk about it or what to say. I left my husband.
There's lots of reasons that I won't get into, but it really boils down to the fact that we didn't make each other happy anymore. I think we both want really different things out of life. Or rather, I know exactly what I want and I have no idea what he wants. I spent many weeks bouncing around on people's couches and trying to figure out what the fuck to do. Eventually I found myself a really awesome apartment and am trying to move forward.
I got a really big place and it's all mine. It doesn't quit feel like it yet...I'm kind of stumbling around this big place feeling very strange and trying to make it into a home.
There's lots and lots of stuff I still need though, which brings me to my wishlist. I put some practical things I really need on there. I probably need a vacuum more than anything else. Any awesome friends or fans who wanna help me out will receive a personalized thank you photo in return.
If you want to check it out you can do that here:

http://tinyurl.com/2w93jkm

I've been just trying to unpack and make sense of everything. I go between bouts of crying and then being incredibly angry and then crying and then feeling relieved. I guess ending a marriage is kind of like the death of a loved one. I feel very much like I'm going through the process of mourning a loss. Which seems pretty normal...unless your a scumbag and get a new girlfriend less than a week after your wife leaves you and before her stuff is even out of the house....I guess mourning is something you do when you care about someone.

I've spent so many years making every move with Trash in mind and now that I'm not taking care of him I hardly know what to do with myself. I wish I had some awesome culinary tales to share...but cooking for yourself is a bit depressing and I am not exactly striving to make awesome meals for myself.
I DO have some happy news tho! I finally got what I've wanted for so long: A NEW CHIHUAHUA!
The lovely and devoted slave swan found me the most perfect little chi and I am so happy to be her chihuahua mom.
Her name is Rosalita...aka Rosa. she's a little spitfire with an adorable snaggletooth underbite. her and Olive are warming up to each other and they like to leap around my new awesome backyard together and they play and it's adorable. It's nice to still have doggies to snuggle up to at night. I took a really cute video of them playing at the park together, but youtube is being stupid and although it says upload complete the video isnt there sooo...I can't share it with all of you.
but here is a photo slave swan took of here:

pretty cute eh?

I also got some photos back from photographer Chris Addams www.chrisaddams.com
Me as a reaper:





As far as my site goes: unfortunately everything got pushed back alot: it's kind of hard to work on your porn site when your staying on your dad's couch. All I can say is: it'll be done by the end of the year, and I am throwing all of my energy into getting it done as quickly as possible.

In other porno news:
I'm currently all over the front page of www.burningangel.com
I have a new video out, a threesome awesome hidden sex tape kind of thing starring the one and only JOANNA ANGEL, Mister James Deen and myself.

you can check that out here:
http://www.burningangel.com/videos/619/hidden-cam-threesome
and also: my interview with Erik of WATAIN is currently online:

and you can check that out here:
http://www.burningangel.com/words/article/509/watain

I've also booked another naked cooking show so you can check out the events section of Burning Angel to see info on that!
Next month: I'll be in Colorado for quit some weeks, because my sister is having a baby. And I am also pleased to announce that I was asked to be feature performer yet again at this year's TRAUMA fetish party in October in Columbus OH. Not only that, but it went so well last year that they are actually going to do TWO parties this year! So folks in Oh will have the chance to see me perform twice in one week. I'm also gonna be interviewing HAVOK, GOATWHORE and EXHUMED while in OH. And right after THAT when I get back to the east coast, I'll have the extreme pleasure of interviewing MAYHEM in NYC.
So yes, things are rough, but it's full speed ahead and it can only be better from here on out.
Please don't forget about my wishlist people, I could certainly use some help and support right now!
I love you all, and I'll be back to updating regularly now. <3