For starters I am not just a white girl haha. I was Born in Tela, Honduras and yes I have the immigrant mark on my arm :P My mother is Hispanic, my father is Italian. Which makes me a burrito guido. Growing up in a third world country has taught me not to be superficial and not to be a picky eater because we didn't have much. Even till this day I will never leave food on my plate. I will always remember how poor my family and I used to be and how much we struggled. Going to school in Honduras sucked because I already knew English (thanks to my father) I was a "know it all". (School there only taught the children English). Everyday after class I got beat up. I came home with bruises and covered them from my mother.
After a while I became immune to beatings and I started to like them. I became a masochist. I was always teased and felt ugly and hated being pale because I wanted to fit in with the ideal of beautiful in Honduras.
After Honduras I went through Guatemala, Mexico and went to Texas for a month or two and went to a catholic school where the girls will flash each other in the bathroom because they were curious to see the other girls breasts to compare them. It made me feel more comfortable with who I was and it's ironic that I felt comfortable with my sexuality after Catholic school. LOL After Texas, I went to Florida, then Virginia, and then finally my family settled down in Brooklyn, New York.
---Ok here is where my Teen life started. SEX, DRUGS and Betrayal is what I like to call it. I lost my virginity to a boy who was my first actual boyfriend at the age of 14.
Sucks because it's when I learn to never trust someone due to other girls getting involve. I use to think a relationship was two people but in New York, caddyness is everywhere and people will ruin you. I met so many "friends" who got me into drugs in the beginning of high school. This may ruin my reputation but in High School I wanted to loose weight due to getting cheated on so many times and because of my child hood getting beat up I was always insecure. A girl who I won't mention her name told me about cocaine and how skinny it makes you. At the age of 15 I did my first line of cocaine in a bathroom and I remember I wanted to gag when my throat became numb. It was a very stupid decision, after that she introduce me to other drugs. For a while I was 98 pounds and I was struggling with my weight and my addiction to cocaine. It was all fun and games until my friend Zack died due to inhaling a can of dust off. (That's why I have a letter Z tattooed in my finger) After that the school was aware of drugs being passed around in the hall way and we all got detention and I had to go to therapy. I became depressed and angry. I also got hit by a car when I was 16 due to me being intoxicated where I was in a semi-coma for a whole year. My whole left side was injured and my ribs popped out and I dislocated two ribs, left hip and shoulder. When I return to school I got kicked out of high school due to a fight between a girl and I. I realize it was time for change. I cleaned up my act and I enrolled myself to an alternative high school where you had to intern in local places for credits. It taught me respect, it matured me and saved my life. I became drug free, I became healthy, I became somebody.
I intern at an animal clinic where I found a handicap cat, I took him in and I taught him how to walk ^-^! I became more active with helping handicap animals and I donated a lot to the ASPCA. I now have 3 cats, 1 rabbit, 1 turtle, fishes and a huge dog!
Last year I made sure all negativity was left behind, a "friend" I had was a dirty girl who hustled, cheated, did drugs and didn't care about life. I hung out with her because I assumed she can change. She was sick and due to me being around her all the time she gave me meningitis. I suffered from it all of Christmas and New Years of this YEAR! (2010-2011) The guy I was seeing at the time never came to visit. It made me realize to never depend on anyone. I fought it and said FUCK YOU to my past. I am so much better and stronger from all the situations I've been through. I met new people and my true friends kept in touch with me throughout the years. It's where I became a new person. I felt like I was born again. So I got my high school diploma, the long hard way. I'm in college and I applied for BurningAngel.com
Burning Angel was a wise choice for me to join, not only did I see the real world. But I met good people who want the best for me. Severin Graves and Krissie Dee are extremely Real. Joanna Angel, Kelly, James, Sippi, the whole crew are just amazing. Including the rest of the Burning Angel girls. They are all very sweet.
It also boost my confidence. I am extremely happy with who I am today, and I see my past mistakes as experiences and a life lesson. Both my parents are aware of what I am doing on this site and outside my internet/Burning Angel life. They are so proud of the changes I made. I wouldn't change anything in my past, it taught me well. It's what made Aria Rae happen.
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